fun with truth *copy from Dibon*

100 TRUTHS ABOUT ME

LAST
1. Last beverage: Oreo
2. Last phone call: Mira Shahidan
3. Last text message: Rosliza Nengsi
4. Last song you listened to: Sweet Charity "Batu"
5. Last time you cried: on 2007

HAVE YOU EVER
6. Dated someone twice: yes
7. Been cheated on: mostly
8. Kissed someone and regretted it: Never
9. Lost someone special: yes
10. Been depressed: most of the time
11. Been drunk and threw up: nope, never drunk

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS
12. Blue
13. Black
14. Green

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU (2010)
15. Made a new friend: Yes
16. Fallen out of love: Yes but it was a disaster
17. Laughed until you cried: yep, sebab teringat kisah waktu sekolah dulu
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes, Mr KP Lee change me on how to deal with people
19. Found out who your true friends were: ofcourse.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: i dont wanna know
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Yes
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: most of them,
23. How many kids do you want to have: kid kitten?
24. Do you have any pets: yeah, never has to feed
25. Do you want to change your name : No! be grateful okay.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Mandi Pantai Kat PD
27. What time did you wake up today: as usual, pukul 6 lah
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Termenung
29. Name something you cannot wait for: Beli Kereta Baru
30. Last time you saw your mother: This morning
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Get taller n more good looking, hahaha
32. What are you listening to right now: November Rain - guns n roses
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Tom? Mak tom? Mak Dibon?
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: myself
35. Most visited webpage: facebook, Mangahut and bloggers
36. Whats your real name: Mohamad Ridzhuan Rozaidy Kamaruddin
37. Nicknames: Rico, Red, Coco, Rizzy, ntah, mcm2
38. Relationship Status: single.
39. Zodiac sign: Taurus
40. Male or female: bodo ni
41. Elementary: 3 school,
42. Middle School: 3 school
43. Birthday: May 10 1989
44. Hair colour: not so black
45. Long or short: semi
46. Height: 169
47. Do you have a crush on someone : yeah, nothing special about it
48: What do you like about yourself: i adore myself,
49. Piercings: sakit
50. Tattoos: NO! are you crazy?
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS
52. First surgery: recently
53. First piercing: no
54. First best friend : Awan
55. First sport you joined: Hockey
56. First vacation: 13 years old Langkawi
57. First pair of trainers: tak ingat

RIGHT NOW
58. Eating: No
59. Drinking: No
60. I'm about to: post this
61. Listening to: nothing
62. Waiting on: something good

YOUR FUTURE
63. Want kids: yeah.
64. Get Married: yup.
65. Career: building it right now

WHICH IS BETTER
66. Lips or eyes: eyes
67. Hugs or kisses: both.
68. Older or Younger: younger
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Romantic or spontaneous: both.
71. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice arms la.
72. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.
73. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble Maker.

HAVE YOU EVER
74. Kissed a stranger: once
75. Drank hard liquor: never
76. Lost glasses/contacts: yup!
77. Sex on first date: err.. bodo ni
78. Broken someone's heart: everytime
79. Been arrested: No.
80. Turned someone down: yes
81. Cried when someone died: Yeah.
82. Fallen for a friend: it wouldnt last long though

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
83. Yourself: Everytimes
84. Miracles: yes.
85. Love at first sight: yes
86. Heaven: ofcourse.
87. Santa Claus: bodo ni
88. Kiss on the first date: maybe
89. Angels: i lost her, hahaha

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
90. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time:never, 1 at a time
91. Did you sing today: MCfly Its All about U
92. Ever cheated on somebody: as far as i concern, no!
93. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: on my 12 years of age, i wanna meet her,
94. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be: i always fight

95. Whose car did you ride in last: mine, Ona
96. Who was the last person to call you a bitch: try me
97. What color shirt are you wearing: white and black stripes
98. Has anyone recently told you something you didn't want to hear: yes, right before i hit him
99. Has anyone recently disappointed you: yes,
100. Posting this as 100 truths: truts as for me :)

Me Standing Still But Everytime Im Losing

Last nitght was a really bad night, I lose Ara, i Lose 1 more thing, its not because of im too pushy like always but its a matter of rejection, which im really use too, everytime,

Why am i supposed to have what i want, although it mutual, whats wrong with me? talking to friends for once and a while really keep me back on track, because most of them really do are for me, and even them dont want me to get a silly scratch, but always is, truth hurts, but its not about the truth i seek but its about the truth i see, its a lie if i dont feel a thing, ive done things, but i feel worthless, i say things but its not listened, whats bad of me, that when i started something i will finish it, work out or not its not an issue, but ill be always trying,

Losing someone, i used to carry that feeling everyday, its not easy to bear it but willingness to move on spirited me, maybe, if i have faith i will make it out somehow,

Thx K for the talk, and thx all my frens to make me realize that is im making mistakes now, ...

Am i Really a Workaholic?

i think that im the laziest human on earth, i didnt do much, in my free time im just lying down, on bed, on sofa, on floor, but yesterday KP ask me to go home and leave all the paperwork in the Vitara. i said later, but i manage to slip few of the drawings back home in staff's house which im working on till 12 a.m yesterday, am i really a workaholic?

She sms me on 11.40 , it was such a small matter but i burst! not because of her, its because of my head are on the tense state of calculations and my eyes tired and watery. after 5 mnutes i gain my senses, i call her, she sounded so weak, so sad, i feel like from the laziest human on earth that i become a biggest jerk in this universe,

n i think this is the first time that ive talked to her this much, im not much of a talker n not much of the thinker, but talking to her calms me, her voice soothes me, make me calm, make me refresh, i dont know, but her dorkiness gets to me, can u believe she pop out Batu caves in the middle of VAmpires' talk? that cracks me up hard and i was laughing hysterically, thx Mydear, this year was rough but u make me laugh hard so ill remember that

after i talked to her, magically i walk past of my works and wrapped myself in my Apple Comforter, put my head on my Apple pillow and i black out, this morning when i woke up i lose myself, i forgot my phone, im wearing my fancy shoes till KP tells me, i want u to go back to home at 2, and dont come till i told u to!

its like ive won the world cup, i drive insanely back home and eat, sleep and play ps2 till im writing my stupid blog rite now,,

the bottom line is, am i really look like Shia Labeouf?

Sigh.. Love Love Love

In one Calm Morning, I sit at the Dining table with typical No-Mood-Up from Sleep Face and My Ma come to me and make me a drink, our conversation was something like this

Ma: Along, balik tak ari ni atau tido kat Rawang
Me: Balik Ma
Ma: Ma tgk Along pegi keje balik keje je, Along ni takde Kawan ke?
Me: Ade, Alip ngan Mus tuh, ade je
Ma: Maksud Ma kwn perempuan, Gf,
Me: .............
Ma: Keje dan Tolong Family tu penting, tp Along kene jaga diri juga, Tak salah cr Org ntuk share Problem, sebab Ma tau Along mmg Tak cite sume bende ngan Ma
Me: Ma ckp ape ni?
Ma: Jd Normal Along, Jgn jadi seorg yg pentingkan diri, Ma rse dah cukup ape yg Along bg
Me: .............
Ma: pegi je cri yg sesuai
Me: easier talk than done Ma, i have nothing to give to them
Ma: Ada, bg ape yg Along Bg kat Family, pd die,
Me: Sape?
Ma: Mulakan dgn Gambar Perempuan kat Wallpaper Handphone Along tu
Me: tgk la dulu Ma,

Starts with A girl in my Phone Wallpaper, hmm, i just have no guts to tell her that was really what i want, afraid she might hate me and ruin our friendship, hate to see her cry , once before i was a liar, saying things that not in my heart, once im true, saying everything truely but it become intimidating. but now i dont say anything, and ive yet to see the consequences, Ive never experience Commited relationships so i think thats what i fear, to start, maybe someday i will be overturn by a girl, then just lets see, rushing into something will get u nowhere,

** Before my Ma says: Sekolah dulu, takyah nak menggatal cr makwe, but now, it changes

Have a Stroll at Where I work, My Office

i Work As A Quantity Surveyor and Safety Advisor At CSC Bhd as a subcontractor of Mudajaya Bhd under IJM Corporation,

Where i spend most of my time, work, facebooking, sleeping, my main table,

overview of my office,

Drawing table, sole mine coz i keep all the drawing of all sites

My only shelf, these file is only accessible by me, coz i filed it up my way, even my boss have a headache , hahaha

What i like in my office?

1. i got all of this for myself
2. i can do whatever i want in it, eat , sleepover,
3. have 2 units of air-conditioner
4. the inspection glass to my left
5. the only Computer access to internet Via WireLAN others use Wireless
6.no body disturb my work
7. i thank my Boss for this generousity

Bakat??

if its consider as bakat then i have this one thing, i tend to be not care for about an instant.

lets say, im caring for u, asking how ur doing, are u well, even pat the dust off ur shoulder, but sometimes, i just change, i will be so blur and seems like dont care anymore, i look for a sign, and if i found it, i will be more caring or suddenly i dont want to see u, its nothing wrong with you, it is about me, so dont be like sad or feeling cheated or anything

Last nite i saw this girl, ive known her for two years. but i saw something in her eyes so i decided to leave her be from now on, im sorry but i have to do this. :)

the weakness that i have is i easily fall for someone, but i also easy to forget my foolish feeling anytime, im no one, so just beat it and see the whole world for urself,

and note this, if i see a pie surrounded by flies, i will leave the pie, someone decide to protect the pie by exterminate flies, but not for me, if its too sweet, i will get diabetes, so just let the flies have it

What if U is me?

u will be -:

1. 169cm tall
2. weight varies extremely, last call 56kg
3. Always sleepy
4. hardcore RPG gamers
5. Musical, poetic kind of person
6. hard to trust coz seems so unreal
7. just have near death experience
8. crazy about sneakers Particularly Converse
9. Drive recklessly
10. sleep a lot, and ignore everything during the time
11. treasure someone that gives the same
12. dont give a D*mn about anyone else excepts for ............
13. live in a complicated family
14. money always last
15. Do anything truely
16. i destroy more than i create
17. loves Kim Taeyeon of Girls Generation
18. talents? absolute Poker face
19. have laughing problems
20. do anything to solve problems
21. not so good in fashion sense
22. sometimes a mute
23. mood swings by time, 10pm, and morning, like it quite
24. love childrens
25. have cooking brain but bone is heavy
26. sarcastic mind, please beware
27. dont try untried food but try untried games
28. items collectors
29. online evryday but never feel addicted, have no problems to leave it for a while
30. always up to something, not a person with empty mind

ordinary? complicated? typical? u judge