DREAM

satu soalan Ayah Alang aku yg sgt menusuk kalbu pada awal tahun ,

"dulu mase kecik cita2 kau nak jd apa wan? sekarang kau jadi ape dan ape yang menghalang kau mencapai cita2 kau?"

soalan ni buat aku Jammed, aku tak dapat jawab walaupun dengan sepatah perkataan,

bila difikirkan balik, satu je jawapan dia, aku GAGAL

aku set target tapi aku tak dapat capainye lagi, aku duk GOOFING OFF dengan REPUTASI, PERASAAN, dan mcm2 bende yang mcm PALSU dan tak membawa faedah pape pada aku

jadi, selepas menampar diri aku sendiri berulang2 selama lebih 3 jam setengah.. barulah peredaran darah aku keotak jadi lagi lancar sedikit, jadi aku analyse soalan2 tu, :)

1. apa cita2 aku? = Pakar Motivasi @ Musician

2. apa yang aku jadi sekarang? = Pakar Motivasi - intraining @ Musician - syoksendiri

3. apa yang menghalang aku? = kewangan, takde kenaikan, takde pelajaran = BULLSHIT

lg sekali, betul2 n ikhlas jujur menjawab

3. apa yang menghalang aku? = diri aku sendiri yang ambil mudah, diri aku sendiri yang malas, diri aku yang suka bertangguh2, diri aku yang tak boleh bezakan mane yang perlu diselesaikan dulu dan kemudian

*tepuk dahi*

ye la, masalahnya adalah DIRI AKU SENDIRI

penyelesaian aku,

Buckle up, speed up,

as skang aku dah dipertanggungjawabkan jd Enjin pada SCA as Administrative Manager of Go-Pro and still aku hold jawatan lama as Business Development Executive

tapi ni bukan masanya untuk aku mengeluh, tapi ni masanya untuk aku buktikan pada sume org yang penting diri aku sendiri yang aku boleh capai cita2 aku sebab sememangnya Allah sayang pada aku dan aku tak lari dari Track aku langsung walaupun aku HAPRAK!

hanya berikan lebih masa untuk diri sendiri dan ketenangan hidup aku bertambah setiap hari

Me Still So Slow

entry kali ni Bahasa Melayu,
( to Harold, John, Jackie, Donna, Sachiko, Lydia and Tiffany - Google translate is convenient)

Perubahan drastik, hari pertama tahun 2011 aku berubah dengan drastik sekali kerana aku rasa aku perlu, apa yang aku buat?

1. Gunting rambut aku yg panjang ala Mat Rempit
2. Berhenti kerja walaupun aku tak cari lagi kerja lain
3. Lupakan segala yang buruk berlaku sepanjang 21 tahun aku hidup
4. Kosongkan fikiran aku dengan perkara negatif
5. Selesaikan semua Masalah aku
6. berhenti lepak

so suku pertama tahun ni aku mmg agak exceptionally happy, dan aku dapat tahu ape efek keikhlasan dan kejujuran, pada diri sendiri, bila difikirkan balik aku yang tahun lepas2 tu agak sangat2 HAPRAK. kenapa aku ckp macam ni? ok, analisis:

1. aku sangat pandang rendah orang lain dan tak bagi can langsung
2. aku kejar impian palsu dan aku kuat berangan
3. aku tamak dan tak bersyukur
4. aku sombong
5. aku lupa dosa dan pahala
6. aku tak terima nasihat orang

tapi tu yang nak cakap, kalu nak berubah, Allah akan permudahkan, aku selalu yakin yang aku akan jadi lebih baik, pertama untuk diri sendiri dan orang2 yang aku sayang, dan sumber pertama kekusutan aku ialah, aku lelaki so ialah Perempuan, tapi skang aku da tahu enapa aku selalu stress, sedih, marah, cemburu, dengki, pasal cinta kononnya,

1. couple: cume trend, mcm handfon, semua orang kena ada, tapi pada aku skang, kalu sabar, Allah akan reward aku, i have faith and couple bagi aku tak penting langsung
2. Masa: asa aku tertumpu kat dia je so aku tak efficient keje, aku jarang habiskan masa ngan famili, duit aku banyak habis, fikiran aku kusut
3. Tumpuan: waktu belajar terganggu, waktu kerja tido, haprak kan? aku takleh bezakan whats first come first
4. syaitan: bila ada masalah, salahkan diri, salahkan orang lain, marah, dengki, cemburu, fikiran tak betul, nak buat benda jahat, Astaghfirullahallazzim
5. keseronokan sementara: sementara je, senang dapat senang hilang

kngkadang aku terpandang Helang, aku hairan kenapa die selalu bersendirian, tapi tu yang Allah nak tunjuk, Helang Kuat dan dia terbang lagi tggi dri burung lain sebab hati die kuat, n aku tak penah tgk bini and anak2 die mengekor dia, dan dia akan buat satu perkara tu bila tiba masanya saja

Kenapa nak bersedih dan marah?

die cume muncul dalam hidup aku baru2 ni je, tp pengaruh die,

1. buat aku ignore diri aku sendiri
2. buat aku ignore famili yang sgt perlukan aku
3. buat aku ignore kawan2 aku

ha, yeah, aku takkan terjerat lagi,

bila berseorangan ni banyak bagi aku ruang untuk aku manfaatkan masa untuk diri aku sendiri, lebih banyak masa dengan pencipta, dengan famili, dan tujuan hidup aku lebih cerah

aku dah pilih untuk jadi manusia yang normal sebab ape yg negatif aku ckp kat atas ni sume membuktikan kegagalan berfikir aku, manusia tak sempurna jadi kenapa fokus kepada ketaksempurnaan dan bukannya mengurus supaya lebih kepada kesempurnaan,

moral of the story:

biar aku je yang simpan, hanya orang yang dah laluinya akan faham


dan tajuk diatas, Slow?

aku rse perubahan diri aku yang drastik adalah still sanagat slow, dan pencapaian selama 4 bulan ni sangat slow, dan aku yakin aku boleh buat lagi baik, Lillahitaala, :D

Thinking Error that I have but I manage to RE-LEARN it

1. ALL OR NOTHING

I used to see things in extreme, its all or nothing, its good or bad, I don’t see any in between, n I don’t believe in neutral point, its outside the hole and inside the hole, but now I teach myself everyday to less see things in extreme way, I just lay a bit back and it helps,

2.OVER-GENERALISATION

Generalizing something before it would happen, I does this a lot, as when I started to do something, when I fail, I believe that I will never surpass these walls, but nowadays, I physically challenge myself to push the wall and so far ive succeeded and yet I have thousands of way to push it even harder

3. MIND-READING

When someone to show me some behaviour I don’t like, I tried and I judge their mind, as my friend look at me with no interest look, I jumps to conclusion that they want to get beat up or they are a pest already, nowadays, I drastically stop mind reading and treat like their head is empty, and it helps to put positive thoughts instead of negative

4. FORTUNE TELLING

Forecasting, when the glory days of me with sports and music, I does say things long before the event started, I saw a small skinny guy to fight me for a medal, I said that ill beat him up due to my excessive confidence, though it come true, the question is what if it isn’t coming true? Ill suffer emotional disturbance that is, stop foreseeing things

5eEMOTIONAL REASONING

Put emotion as reason, im mad right now, u have make me so, the truth is I was long mad before I find the guy, so he become the scapegoat of my thinking error,

Never put emotion with your judgment,

6. PERSONALISING

Always sees blame, always has someone to blame but not myself, ive give a lot of excuses that doesn’t even have myself in it, I always blame, but as blaming wont solve the problems, im done blaming, instead I try to look at myself and think, what went wrong on the strategy

7. DISCOUNTING THE POSITIVE

Ur cool, ur strong, ur sweet, yah got that a lot but ill never entertain it and does never ever say thanks to one that says it, every person need positive appreciation so just accept the positive things and negative things vice versa

8. LABELING

Judge and labels, ur a loser, always will be, u never change-à these things I used to say yesterday but today, see things and other human is also have hard times and defectfullness as me, and it help me relax and also enhancing my relationship.

9. DEMANDINGNESS

Things that I see as a must, sometimes, my must is what I don’t have to think at all, small things that I don’t see always get to me, so I demand less and I follow what I already have and enhancing it 1 at a time,

10MAGNIFICATION

Exaggerate, I cant accept person make fun of me, and I will get even, maybe worse, I do exaggerate a lot, small things ill take it big and it stress me a lot, now I see things as it is, not bigger, not smaller

11DISCOMFORT INTOLERANCE

I feel bad about something and I will be intolerable, highly intolerable, but nowadays. I put my comfort far from myself and I learn to tolerate, its late start but never be the last

12PHONEYISM

All my life I carried lots of reputation, myself, my parents , my teachers, and it burdens me, ive afraid that I will not be able to perform, and afraid to be look as a failure, nowadays, PHONEYISM is at my foot, ill get my hand on anything and im not afraid to be look as a loser, and I promised, I will not be a loser all my life,

Travelling for April

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Due to request by Eryna Natasha , Hafiz Hazim dan Adila Farhana

This is my schedule for April, take a load of these until u puke!

im no procrastinator!

RICO RIDZHUAN ROZAIDY

RICO RIDZHUAN ROZAIDY
>22 INCOMING<
>BROWN EYES-HAIR<
>PROUD SON AND BROTHER<
>HEALTHY-WELLBEING<
>SINGLE STILL NOT AVAILABLE<

Frequently ASKed Question

Q: Why u look older? are u really 22?
A: i am, besides, i pinch my cheek to look older so i can scare kids

Q: why is ur hair n eye colour the same?
A: i dont know.. i thought my hair is black

Q: what u like to do in free time?
A: umm.. Gundams, Guitar, PS2, Facebook, let My cat bite me, go out with girls

Q: why are u single?
A: im choosy, complicated, and i like to be Alone and im not allowed to YET

Q: any crushes?
A: KIM TAEYEON OF SNSD!!!!! 1 and ONLY!!!

Q: any regret?
A: yeah.. a lot.. but the worst of my regret lies in Kuala Kangsar

Q: u have nice smile
A: thats not a question, but thx :)

Peragut Berjaya

Name aku Rico, aku seorang peragut, bukan sahaja aku meragut rumput, aku juga penah meragut lalang, semak ubi dan bermacam2 tumbuhan menjalar yang lain,

setelah aku meningkat remaja, aku mule berjinak2 untuk meragut beg sekolah budah perempuan sebab aku mulai mempunyai rse ingin tahu ttg apakan isi didalamnye, akhirnye persoalan aku terjawab, budak perempuan mmg pemalas, pegi sekolah tak bwk buku teks langsung... tp, mungkin mangsa aku tu mmg spesis malas.

setelah aku meniti keremajaan, aku mule meragut beg tangan, selalunye mangsa aku yg dgn rela hatinye menghulurkan beg tangan kepada aku, setakat ini aku penah meragut beg tangan Ma aku sendiri berulang2 lebih dr 200 kali, tetapi Ma aku tak penah gusar,

hari ini, semakin ramai perempuan yg ingin beg mereka diragut oleh aku, aku pun mule merasakan aku membuat perkara yg sia2, kalu nak pape baik mintak je, :) jgn jd peragut,

aku bru pulang dr Aktiviti meragut besar besaran ditepi Pantai
beg itam tu ade lebih kurang 67juta pound sterling

JUST DON’T GET ME UPSET *im normal, I do get upset*

Case 1: Unknown Number

I believe the alien was a she. Out of the blue SMS me and I haven’t recorded her number, with all of kind I asked “who is this” and she nonsensely answer “awek Lame(old Girlfriend’) I kindly said that that is not possible but she keep taunting me, as I repeatly asked for her Identity, she keeps playing so I curse her a lot, and she cried… I don’t give a shit, u started it, and yeah farewell, I don’t befriend stupid people, I hate it when sumone nonsensely taunting me, I don’t care if ur not in my life, u aren’t worthed to be anyway, u said that we use to be on the same class, u stupid or what? Are in a class just consist u and me? Get a grip, if u really does knew me, u will understand, oh , u will not understand, as I said ur too damn stupid to answer “who are u “ with Pokemon as an answer.

Case 2: Want to meet me but need me to go to you and questioning my life

This really get on my nerve , I don’t know what type or person this is, they wanna meet me but no effort on showing up, asking me to come to their doorsteps. What kind of loser are they, u wanna meet me then come and see me, how dare u said that everytime u want to “lepak” I don’t show, n u stupidly questioning my free time, and as I have many girl as friend, u question that too, U own Me HUH? Get a grip, I don’t hang out with losers, im not offended that u said I don’t show if u ask but im offended when ur questioning my life, never once u bring food to my doorsteps so just go to hell

Case 3: I write what I want and I didn’t expect half a bit that u would understand

I don’t know whats gotten into u, ur not talking for a few month, but when I write something, u get that against me, ur assuming things, go ahead, I don’t care, ur not even knew me hard well but u really wants to read my mind, u want to know a secret? Most of myself with u are all FAKE. Its just a game play with myself, harsh world huh?get use to it coz ur naiveness will get to you sooner or later.

Case 4: I can go out with whoever I want whenever I want

U does not own me dammit, why should it be an issue when I go out with them and not with u? here is, ur pathetic , im a fren, not ur dad, im not paying for everything u want to do, u asking me to take u out but u expect me to rip my wallet apart? Get a job, buy yourself a couple of wallet, why needed mine? And if ur broke, don’t tag along , u are nothing but a disappointment and a burden. Im bad? Get real, this is life

Case 5: don’t trash anything and don’t mess with my stereo

Every time I bring u in my car, I found a new trash, u think im ur cleaner or what? And my car is not ur disco, u cant just pop on ir disc and sing along annoyingly. Did u went into somebody’s house and started treating their radios and TV’s as ur own? Its common sense, don’t mess with others thing And have integrity. If I do want to say anything u will be crying. I don’t like it when people mess with my car sound system, if u don’t like it, beat it, Get ur own car

Case 6: Don’t touch me

Don’t ever lean on me, hold my hand, kiss my cheek, hug me, and cling to me, my body and dignity is not for u to take ur hand all over me, I don’t care who u are, ur nothing, don’t touch me, go touch sum1 else if ur so damn desperate, not me, im not for sale like ur properties.