Thursday, December 13, 2012

Selamat Ulang Tahun Syg~

Kek yg Harga Rm6.90 dgn Lilin Free

Selamat Harijadi Yang Ke 21 Sayang, 

i really cant express myself in Malay actually, i think the language lacks feels as i know it, im going to give this message in english,

First of all, Im really sorry for the way i behave for this past year, i think i have done a lot to hurt u than to love you, u once said to me, Apsal b kebelakangan ni Mengguris hati saya, yeah that makes me cry hard, i called another girl syg, it kills me inside when u cry, it doesnt matter if i mean it or not but the fact is it hurt u, i play YM recklessly like my old single times, also that makes u cry, it kills me too, i our state now, we cant hurt alone, theres must be the two of us and thats how deep our heart connected

Im sorry for everything this past one year, i know im a jerk i will improve, 

look at your frens getting married, look at my frens getting married, dont u try to run from me, ill come for u

i know having me as a BF is a burden sometimes, i set down some rules, u cant do that, u cant do this, i force u to control ur emotion, i get mad at ur nature as a girl, sometimes its just i so love you that i feel overprotecting towards you, i know im controlling your decision now but please bear with me, i dont want you to do the same mistakes i did, coz i doesnt care if u leave me someday but u will leave as a better person than the first time u walk into my heart, ill solidify your Attitude, career and your life, for you, not even for me

i know my words is harsh, always, im an emotional person thats a fact, i controlled it Hard, u Help me, :) n with my words i hurt u a lot

as i look at u i saw past through you, i saw how fragile u are, how weak u are, but thats not a bad thing, thats why u need a good and brave man to take care or u and im working hard for that spot,

no matter how hard life hit me, maybe u notice, only u alone can make me laugh honestly now, i have forsaken all the things i have, i pretended to for someone else, just to be with you as myself not some uptight rebelious motivator who earn 500 in 3 days , money cant buy you happiness, n i cry a lot when i broke u did pay for my food,

i live alone, i take care of myself, now i have no family, no friends, no home only a Car but my treasure that i care the most is you


the fact is i never once and never will regret  the first time i said I LOVE YOU infront of ur Face and Down to ur Heart, forever